Day 494

It's has been 494 days together for us. Numerous of quarrel and unhappy happens recently. I don't know what's going on and what when's wrong with me. Or you.. 

I really dint mean to make you angry with my words. I just protecting myself from getting hurt by your words so I indirectly hurt you at first with my words. 

I know you love me and care my much. Same for me... I do love you and care for you so much... I never stop thinking bout you even a day. You are always in my heart and mind. What ever I do I'll think if you first. But do you? 

Maybe yes, maybe sometimes and maybe you are not. I don't know. 

If I really don't care of you, you will not be the one that let me stuns back for what I am thinking and what I wish to do.. Because of you so whatever I do, I'll think of you first before I did.. 

I know you would prefer that I never think of you and do what I want first, but things will never be the same anymore if I just do what I want without thinking of you first. I won't care bout that much anymore, you won't be my first one I think of when choice or selection cames. 

Do you really want that to happens? 

To you I might be easier cause I will never trouble you anymore. But to me this means I should not care you that much anymore... 

Love doesn't come that way... If you are losing care, you will lose it sooner and forever.. 

That is why I always keep it up the care for you as my first choice.