You talk about your her and no more me

I never mention her is because she's only my best best friend. Nothing about her actually. Just me. I should be more clear of myself.

I got rejected by her twice long time ago. I guess she won't accept me. So I didn't want to even say anything.

I told you to break is not because of this. Is because of me and I didn't feel the way it is before. That's why I made this decision. Not because of I want to be other girl. You don't understand. I didn't love anyone. I will focus more on my own. I know this works better.

I know nothing can't be settle. 只是我很感情用事。Makes everything harder. 我做人很矛盾。Want makes everything perfect in my plan but my heart always went opposite direction. As my dad said, I do anything also too 感情用事。Never success. I just feel bad for everyone no matter what I did. Went into a shop just look and didn't buy I also felt so bad. All just because of me.

Thanks for understanding me so well. I didn't fully understand myself for so long. Really appreciate that. I tried to understand me but hardly. I just know that I'm not a good person. That's it. Haha..