You said you love her for 5 years,. you said you love her more than love me. you said you tole me before but i thought you were kidding? ?
I use my whole brain to squeeze and squeeze for whole day, but i still cant recall anything that you said you told me before.
Until I realize that the songs from JJ. 可惜没如果. Is that what you mean you were the one similar with JJ? because your coward and you dint say anything to her?
And i think and think and think. I finally recall the girl. You said she is important to you. and she is your best best friend. I always believe that guys and girls would have a pure friendship. But i never though that you are not just maintaining the normal friendship, but you are aiming for a relationship and you have a crush on her.
I am hurt, my heart truly hurt. I regret that I gave you the freedom think about her and I regret that i did not take good care of you to until I am giving a chances for her to attack our relationship. I regret that I believe in you so much and you hurt me that much. Its extremely hurt.
"Sorry my dear. I didn't meant to do that. The real reason behind is you knew I love someone for long time ago. I love her for 5 years till now. And I couldn't forget her. I love her more than you and I couldn't lie to you not our relationship. One thing I wanna make is to be myself. Make myself settle down. Not to lie to you. I didn't mean to cruel on you. But just I rapidly decreasing my love towards you. She just appeared and I didn't want myself to be unfair. I just felt so bad and selfish. Everything conclude, is my fault. I just couldn't continue like this. I felt suffer which I don't feel good with this. I couldn't sleep and do what I suppose to do for so long. I knew I'm irresponsible but it's happened. I told you, just you thought I'm kidding. I'm not a good guy. I love her more than you. But I didn't want to be with anyone. This is the truth. Sorry.
Not the one. Is one that never exist before. You never a replacement. But we never had a chance to be together. I didn't plan to be with her at all. We never want to be together. Is just I didn't put her down but she didn't know anything. Just that I felt she exist and I feel like I love her more than you do. Which I can't lie to you. You're all good. But just in a bad one. I really thought that I love you more than everything but I do not. I'm just too selfish.
I didn't mean to hurt you but.... Just it happened. I can't say sorry..."
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